welp, i'm back. I had like 800 messages too. holy cahones batman!

Does the shit ever end? Seriously? I've had the worst semester ever, and now this. I come home for christmas, and my dad gives me the flu again. this is like the third time. I go get meds for it, and whaddya know...I'm allergic to them! So I break out in hives right....and I haven't even been concious for the past two days, and now the hives. the latest development ( aside from sucktastic itchyness) is that my knees seem to have swollen to the size of fucking I-don't-know-what. It hurts, and its sometimes numb....I dunno. It seems to have gotten to my ankles too. And my nausia hasn't gone away. What the fuck!?!?! god i hate everything right now.

So tomorrow is the big day for the delivery. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also really apprehensive. My sister-in-law tends to say very hurtful things, and my dad is a total jerk. I actaully had to go to therapy because of the mental abuse. I'm gonna be  with both of them tomorrow, and no brakes. I really want to concentrate on my new niece, but I can't shake the feeling I'll get upset soon. I have to ride in the car for four hours with my dad on the way back, and I think a big fight will definitely come up. I can't seem to get happy about this. Maybe once I get to hold Linley I'll feel better. It just seems lately that the only person who cares is my mom.

So sometime between the 14 and the 18, I will have a niece. she will be the first in my family since me, so this is pretty big. anyway, i'm gonna try to get some pictures and post them on here when I go up to see her.