Topic: Scholarship Season
Yes, it's that time of year again. It's time for all the seniors in high school and returning college students to write ten-page essays on the health risks of SPAM and submit yourself to pure, unadulterated horror in order to finance you post-secondary education.
But wait! This is my first time doing all this. D: And I'll tell you what, too. I've only been looking around for a couple weeks, and I'm already prepared to call it a day and just not go to college. It's impossible for a 17-year-old white girl who is living with both her parents and has no health problems and an irish background to get any free money from the government. It really is.
Does anybody have any scholarship stories they care to share? Perhaps some advice for me?
Didn't we try having a venting thread before? This feels familiar, and I'm pretty sure we had to close it because people kept flaming everyone else.
OWCH. I can't see me ever living without caffiene in some form. xD
I wish you the best of luck, though! And when you crave the caffiene, eat an apple - they wake you up just as well as a cup of coffee. And they're good for you!
Topic: Music is Inspiration
Lol I just thought of another soundtrack I liked. xD
The Lord of the Rings Trilogy - Okay, I've only actually seen the second and third movies, but I really like the music. The song Pippin sings in the third movie actually made me cry.
Topic: Music is Inspiration
Hm, some of my favorite soundtracks include:
Silent Hill - The movie and the games all have an excellent, very eery soundtrack. But in a way, it also kinda sounds like scary porno music. If that makes sense. You'd have to listen to some of it to understand what I'm talking about, I think. But my favorite Silent Hill song is "Room of Angels" from the fourth game. I forget who sings it, Mary Elizabeth something-or-other.
Phantom of the Opera - The PotO with Gerard Butler in it! Excellent tunes!
RENT - "Today for You" Is like, the best song ever. xD
Kingdom Hearts - Both games 1 & 2. I like the techno-remix of "Hikari" from the first game, and the piano version of "Passion" from the second the most. The Japanese version of "Swim This Way" and "Under the Sea" from the second game are just epic, too.
Some bands I've recently discovered are:
Kill Hannah - I've only heard their song "Lips Like Morphine" but it's really good if you're into rock. The lead singer is a guy, by the way. Lol.
Breaking Benjamin - Yeah, I know they've been around forever, but I'd never actually heard anything by them until a few weeks ago. I love "Diary of Jane".
Coheed and Cambria - A rock band that bases their albums off of a comic book written by the lead singer. Their song "Welcome Home" is on Rockband 1, and is good.
Uhhh...that's all I got for now!
Topic: Help! Gallery restructuring
My only question is this - you have categories for singular portraits, and couple shots, but what about group shots? I know there aren't that many here on PaperDemon, but there are some. Should there be a gallery for that?
I can understand...to an extent, why skulls are forbidden in our school's dress. But still, what we're wearing doesn't seem as imporant to me as what's going on here at school, as far as our education goes. I mean, the way they enforce certain rules makes them seem like they care more about what's on my shirt than how many fourteen-year-old potheads we have running around the school, or how many people are carrying weapons or whatever. I dunno, our enforcement system has always seemed really warped to me. But I can see where you're coming from. And I suppose the fact that I was wearing the Dark Mark didn't help my case much.
What I really don't understand is why they only decide to enforce the dress code sometimes. Whenever a cheerleader decides to break the rules, they don't get anything. And I probably would have gotten away with it, too, if I hadn't called my teacher out on his clear bias. He's playing favorites! Everybody does, and I don't think that's fair. Especially if I'm the one getting disciplined because I was brave enough to address them about it.
Bah. I dunno. Something's wrong with this school.
I got a detention today, but I don't think I deserve it. Stick around for details.
My school has a rule in our dress code that says we're not allowed to wear skulls. However, nobody takes it seriously because nobody ever gets in trouble for it. Ever. And the worse they do if they do decide to bust you is that you have to obstruct the skull from view (ex. turning your shirt inside-out if the skull is on your shirt) in some way. Nobody really gets in huge trouble for it.
My biology teacher, Mr. Kalan, called me out today on a skull on my shirt. The shirt, in case you're wondering, is a picture of the Dark Mark from the Harry Potter series. So it's not just a skull, and it's a symbol from a book series. So that should count for something, right? But anyway, I was being kind of snarky (I usually am. He knows I'm just kidding) and I asked him, "How so?" He pointed the skull out and I started raving about how I wasn't worried about it because the Dean of Students, Mr. Spano, had seen me earlier today and he didn't say anything about it, so it must not have been a big deal. Then Kalan said something else and I got kind of pissed and started ranting. I told him that I didn't think it was fair that I was being singled out all the time (he'd pointed out skulls in the past, but I never got in trouble for them), and that I could very easily walk him through the school and point out at least, at least ten people violating the dress code in the exact same way I was. And until then, I didn't want to hear anymore about it. It wasn't directed at him, and I think he knew it. But he got all pissed and wrote me up.
So later, I get a summons to go see Mr. Spano. And he starts telling me that I shouldn't have lashed out at Kalan like that (when I didn't), and that if I had lashed out at a customer at work (I work at McDonald's) I would probably get fired, and I should get suspended for my disrespect but I was only going to get a 2-hour detention (we have three different detentions 1, 2, and 3-hours) and I should really apologize to Mr. Kalan for my behavior. That was the end.
Hopefully, I made that as unbiased as possible. But I'm still a little mad, so it might not be perfect. Now here comes the rant.
How on earth is it fair that I got in trouble for that? First of all, I meant everything I said - I really could walk through the school and find a ton of people with skulls on their person and are getting away with it! Every day! Why do they have to pick me out? And if Mr. Kalan is such a dress code nazi (which he is; everyone agrees) then how about all the dress code violators he doesn't write up. Like Karissa, the girl that never wears socks. He never writes her up, probably because she's pretty. How is it that I, the only one in the school with the balls to address this clear bias going on, am the one getting in trouble for it? That's just stupid! Why should I suffer for the sins of others? I'm not Jesus; I shouldn't have to.
And it isn't just Kalan - Mr. Spano told me, and I quote, "When I see people violating the dress code, I yell at them for it." Yeah, well he must not be very observant then. And only yell? I got a two-hour! I spent over an hour afterwards crying about this stupid thing, too. Because as if these past two weeks didn't suck enough, I had to get in trouble for getting dressed this morning. It's just stupid.
And not only that, but the skull on my shirt was part of a symbol from the book. How is it that I'm promoting anything violence (because that's the rule I violated)? If anything, I'm promoting books. I'm a walking billboard for Harry Potter, that's all. And what about all the people wearing Jimi Hendrix clothes? Are they promoting rock n' roll, or smoking pot?
I'm going to serve my detention so I don't get in any more trouble (unless you can file for an appeal...? Can you do that? I don't think so, lol), but I still think it's ridiculous that I got it in the first place. I should have gotten off with nothing, just like everyone else does.
Personally, I think he picked me out because I'm fat. GAH, this pisses me off. Any thoughts?
Topic: Truth hurts
I've come to notice that people rarely 'make things up' out of the blue. Usually most fiction has some fact to it. If it's all a lie, then I envy those who could develop such powerful concepts without ever experiencing anything like it themselves.
Look, I'm not saying that life is all roses and butterflies. Yes there is a lot of pain in the world. Yes there's a lot of suffering. Right now, kids are getting beaten to death by their mothers, people are drowning kittens and there's someone lying on a sidewalk, drunk beyond reason with nowhere else to go. There's a lot of crap going on out in the world that people tend to look away from. It scares them. If they acknowledge it, then they feel obligated to help, which might make them look bad, or something. People are like that. I'm like that...and I'm not proud of it.
But regardless of all the suck in the world, there's still a lot of good, too. Right now, as those kids are getting beaten, there's a loving couple adopting an abused child, giving it a chance to start over and be loved. As those kittens are drowning, there are some being born, entering the world for the first time, and most of them will have kittens, too. As that homeless man dies on the sidewalk, somewhere else a woman is being proposed to by the man she loves in a fancy restaurant.
Our world is corrupt, yes. But not hopeless. And on a more bitter, accusing note, maybe instead of whining about how bleak the world is, you could go do something to help.
Topic: Truth hurts
On Nov 17, 2008 8:49 pm, Animeiac said:
Pretty much. The real truth I was looking for is that there's no such things as love, happiness, hope, joy, pleasure, kindess, and tenderness.
Well, if those things aren't real, then how did the ideas come to be?