Extreme Nervousness :cries:

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For those of you that want to hear the conclusion to this- I am now ok. I did some internet serching

Um- Highlight the next few lines for my problem if you don't mind reading about *girly things*


All the stress I've been under this month has put a stress on my hormones, and thrown my period into a mess, and I found that with large levels of stress, and little sleep, your PMS can explode to includes symptoms that act like flu, inability to sleep or not wake easily, sever anger issues, indesire to do anything, low consentration and more.

Essentially Super PMS. As soon as I realised I had it, and what time of the month it was- I was SO much beter. I JUST got my period a few hours ago and even though I'm in a crap load of pain from the period pain, I'm so much more ME now ^^ I'm back to happy again. I seriously thought I was going crazy!! XD

Thank you EVERYONE to those that gave me support through that tough time. Now I know what was wrong with me, I can make sure it never happens again EVER. PD love to you all!!

The origanal emo trip:-

Oh man. I seriously don't know what's coming over me resently. Ever since my hand has been in bracing, I have lost SO much self confidence in myself, my art, and my life. Then I lost my last Grandmother and my beloved cat Simba before I moved out of the house I have lived in since I was a baby.

I don't know what's coming over me

I try my best to show a brave face to everyone, but my nerves are so brittle lately, I can't sleep without exhausting myself to death, I find it hard to find my passion in drawing... It's all very difficult to me.

Even now, I'm lately regreting going to things. I feel extreme heart break going to Cub Scouts- my energy has gone. I worry so much, and I feel like nothing is becoming fixed. It all use to be so easy. Now, I'm sitting 2 days before the new term with a skeleton programme. I feel like a failier.

This month too- Moot was nice. Australia was fun (besides losing my voice), and Wellington was cool too. But as soon as I get back, I'm so hollow and empty. I sometimes break down and cry.

This morning, I woke up at 2am and emptied my stomach for some unknown reason, and my heart beat just wont rest. I shiver alot. As much as I talk about it, things don't seem to fix.

I am so stressed out I don't know what to do. By the time anyone reads this, I'm probably already beter, waiting for my next wave to hit me. I donno. I donno what to do. There's so much I want to do in life, and my body almost wants to fail at it now.

Oh man, I must seem so emo... I'm not about to hurt myself, but I feel really sick. I'm really sorry to thouse I have promised to and haven't forfilled. I'm so frail at the moment.


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I'm sorry. If anyone has any words they can give to help, I'll be much gracious. I'm running out of options cause no matter how much support people offer, I just load more and more on myself.

Untill further notice, I can't promise I'll suppport comptitions with art. As much as I want to do it, I have to pull the hand break. I'm sorry....

I understand how youre feeling, Ark. Theres not much I can really say..I think you should definatly take a break if you can. Just stay home, unplug the phones, relax in the bath and eat as much comfort food as possible.

Its good that youre talking to people about this though; And you need to keep doing just that. It can get even even worse if you hold it in.

Give yourself some time, and during that time talk to friends or family, or anyone wholl listen and just rant about all your feelings. It always helps, even if only a little bit. After youve done as much talking as you can and given yourself time to try to relax....if youre not better you should go see a doctor and talk to them about this, it could become something (more) serious.

I hope you start feeling better. If you ever need someone to talk to Im here for you. I really do hope you feel better soon, youre a strong person and I know youll get better

Heh... It's a really difficult one. I lie to myself alot and say that I can handle it all when... I'm not sure. Maybe there is more to this for me. I just wish it would get beter, cause I don't like getting sick. I don't like having to go home early cause I'm exhausted. I don't like falling asleep at work cause I couldn't get it at night.

Keeping busy helps me alot, but when I have nothing to do, It's difficult.

I'm not even sure why I'm loading this on anyone, cuase I'm not sure if there's anything you all can do to help.I think I need to sit it through somehow. I don't know. I'll see how I go ^^; Heh...

Read the origanal messege if you want t o see why I WAS emo, but now ok


I'M OK NOW!!! YAYS!!! ZOMG!!!!

i´m glad to hear that you are better now.
*hugs*

Huray you're ok!