My Own Worst Enemy

short and to the point, am i the only one who feels like crud after you go back through old art and you did a piece so well it doesn't even seem like yours, and then you get depressed? in other words, i looked back at my "Dance" piece, felt that way...and now in a sense...i'm envious of myself... there are some pieces that i do that i am so proud of, but they really don't seem like they are actually mine! it drives me nuts and sends me into a little artist’s rut until i think of something even better...the it all happened again, am i my own worst enemy or am i not alone in this?

*slyly* yeeeeeeeeeh....i have problems....

I'm the total opposite- its not that I like my art back then, I mean, it always had passion, but I get memories of drawing the picture, and I feel better athow much I've improved since then.I also joke to myself about haow I never gave that guy a butt, or how that hand was on backwards (i still do that!! Chocolate fish to anyone that spots me post a final with one!!) or whatever.

You can feel bad that you were bad back then, but come on- you have to start off somewhere Noone is born perfect. Try to compare it to your current stuff. It'll make you feel good ^^

I just personally think about all the people who, lord love em, can't draw anything that resembles a face even. Thinking that I am ahead of the game in the respect that I can draw some lines and people know exactly what I want them to see, always makes me feel like I can do no wrong. We all have our moments that we feel we have done something great, but if you stay in that moment alone you will never find that other moment...the one where you can do better.

Don't worry Kitsune.  I know how you feel.  Only with me, it's writing.    But, since you draw, if it makes you feel any better, if you're having a moment, you can always come check out my gallery.  It'll be a simple reminder that you're at least better than someone, no matter what you draw.

P.S,

Everyone should go review my poems.  *whisper whisper

Well, I don't usually look back at my art and like it. Actually, depending on when I look at, I end up crying. I get so upset because I look back at art I put everything I had into, and it still looks so bad. I spend days to weeks working on a outline, trying to make it look wonderful, and in the end I still have gotten no where. So when I do like something and am really happy with myself for giving it my all, when I look back at it, I remember all the hard work I put in. But when I look back, I don't see something beautiful anymore; I see something ugly and it makes me upset. So all in all I don't look back at my art.

Ha, and you thought you had probelms?!

On Mar 16, 2006 4:50 pm, themusicdied said:

Oh that IS terrible! That happens to me too! You look  back at artwork and you feel so bad because you spent like 2 weeks on one piece, and no matter how hard you tried, it still looks like CRAP I got so upset over it once that I almost stopped drawing completely, because I was afraid I was going to draw more CRAP. So yeah...I feel for you...it's a terrible feeling. It's hard to kick myself back into drawing these days. Hopefully you and I can get over it someday...

I think artists are thier own worst critics..

To true I give myself a hard time about how my stuff looks. I never give myself any credit I probably won't until i'm as good or better than my brother (which most likely will never happen -_-). But i have the same problem I'll look back over some of my old stuff and I'll see something that is way better than my earlier stuff it kind of makes me mad. But lately my stuff has been lookin' alot better than it usually does and it gives me hope for the future.

I'm much the same as you kitsune.

I'll go over a piece of artwork of mine that was emotionally charged, see how beautiful it was, and then get depressed that I'm not able to pour myself into my art the way I used to. Especially being in school, I have to spend alot of my artistic talent on the mundane...which is really bothersome. Most of what I post anymore are sketches that basically couldn't handle being crammed in the back of my brain anymore. They come ferocisouly and are gone in minutes; , needless to say I don't create anything of much merit.

I do the exact opposite with my writings; I'll look at something I wrote way back when and cringe at the thought of other people reading it. Ugh, I stunk majorily! Except for my poetry, I can't write poetry like I used to...But, I'd give that up for my increased creative writing ability any day.

So don't feel bad! We all have our steps and processes we have to go through to create an emotional piece; some times we're not able to get exactly what we want because we're not admist the emotion itself. This sounds bad, but I'll intentionally put myself in a rotten mood sometimes when I'm attempting to draw something dark or depressed. It works wonders to be admist the emotion. We can't do that all the time though, so, you have to do what works for you!