Death & Rebirth - Chapter 2

Act 1, Death:

Falling down to my knees, like a shameful act
I try to hold my despair deep within, but it only protracts
(*2)
Deep within my pulsing heart, I know I'm only afraid
Wallowing in shame, like a sex bound bondmaid (*3)

Crimson daydream of love, only brings forth mind-shattering pain
As her beautiful silhouette burns my heart with passion, a feeling I thought we had akin (*4)
Like a dying dove, I too am falling from my heaven
And down I fall without seeing the bottom, while my heart turns as cold as cryogen (*5)

So close is the saving rope, but I can't reach it and I feel anguish (*6)
Falling faster into the void of maddening despair, I try to relinquish (*7)
Torment in my soul, I fail to see my outcast
And inside I bottle up my emotions and try to make them disappear, like the fading stardust (*8)

Crushing into the black barbed rocks I know I'm dying, and the water that runs below slowly continue to flow on forever
Soft tapping of dripping blood echoes in the still air, I'm impaled by the rocks like a cowardly forsaker
Obsolete mind escaping from the prison of flesh and bone, under a starless night sky I'm dying all alone
Gurgle of blood as I try to breathe, my soul is already trying to reach the borderline

A faint feeling of happiness, emanates (*9) from my broken body
How I became truly happy at the hour of my death, the sick irony

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2 = protract, Lengthen in time. To put off to a distant time; to delay; to defer; as, to protract a decision or duty

3 = bondmaid, A female bound to serve without wages

4 = akin, Similar or related in quality or character. Allied by nature; partaking of the same properties; of the same kind

5 = cryogen, A liquid that boils at below -160 C and is used as a refrigerant

6 = anguish, Extreme distress of body or mind. Extreme pain, either of body or mind; excruciating distress

7 = relinquish, Relinquish to the power of another. Release, as from one's grip. Turn away from. Part with a possession or right. Do without or cease to hold or adhere to

8 = stardust, A dreamy romantic or sentimental quality

9 = emanate, Give out (breath or an odor). To issue forth from a source; to flow out from more or less constantly; as, fragrance emanates from flowers