TITLE: Beliefs AUTHOR: Kichi PAIRING (if applicable): none RATING: R for dark themes WARNINGS: angst NOTES: challenge 24 [Beliefs] 0-DBZ-Fanfiction@yahoogroups.com ARCHIVE: www.geocities.com/kichisama666/drabble.html SUMMARY: A belief of life and death
Once she's dead that's it. I'll never see her again. Even if hell is just something just made up. Wherever she goes when she dies, I will not be going there. And for as long as I could remember, It never bothered me. But now it does. The thought that even when I die, I'll still never see her again… It affects me in a way I never imagined. The pain is nearly unbearable. The regret is staggering. The guilt is incomprehensible. The other day I realized this when I saw her lying in bed. She looked so beautiful there, I felt like a knife had split my heart in two as I stared at her. I lay down next to her and pulled her close, and the realization hit me like a wave. My throat tightened and my eyes burned. I held her as close as I could and suddenly she woke. "Shh… it's ok." She whispered slowly rubbing my back, and I wasn't sure why at first, but then I realized that I had been crying harder than the day I died. Hiccupping gasps were coming from me, and she tried to tilt my face toward hers, but I couldn't move. I held her for dear life, my head pillowed on her shoulder, as if she would be snatched away then and there. And one day she will. Forever.