Surfin' - Chapter 1

Sometimes I can hear the sounds of my decay
Let the quiet tears stain my solemn face
In endless moments, I have to ask 'where did I go?'
No one made me change, it's almost
like I forced myself to be in your...

Way out of sight, but still not out of mind
How can I ever be what you want me to be inside?
For awhile I can play along and pretend that nothing's wrong;
Convince myself I'm fine and really, it's okay
But slowly I'm fading away

I love your voice, I love your face
I love the way you make everything okay
So why can't I let all your love just be enough for me?
I can make it such a way, but not enough for you
In time I'll fall

Just surfin' along like nothing's going to change
Forget the past, forget the only words that mean anything;
Walk through the streets looking like I've got something else
That no one else on earth can't say they don't...

Want to give back every piece of you I've spent,
Wasted on plastic fruit and eternal torment
Glass diamonds and fool's gold are my rewards for years spent
Chasing after wind and finding nothing but the rain;
So give me back my hope

I can look inside and see there's nothing left to give
Kept it all inside just to say that I could live;
I can sit and cry as time closes in on my space
So afraid to say goodbye to my eternal resting place

Give her the last hope, just tell her she'll fall asleep
Lord knows, this can't be all that there is to be
And in your meadows, there lies all the flowers
Of dreams and of love and everything beyond my power
To reach

Sometimes I can hear the sounds of my decay
Ignore all the tears and put on my poker face
But there in the stillness, a hole rent in my heart
A pocket deep inside that I've tried everything to fill
And now, I'm waiting for you