i lock everything down inside hoping the barriers will last. wondering if i will fall into an abyss; one so deep and vast. people wonder why i am the way i ambut i ignore the stares my parents dont seem to understand why my soul has so many tears. i've lost all trust no one is true enough to me only because they cant understandwhat it's like being me. i'm so tired i dont want to deal i'm sick of the pain i dont want to feel.