Behind The Mask - Chapter 1

Behind the mask

Whom do I entertain you ask?

A phantom crowd that I make up.

And everyday I hide my face away

Behind my cheerful façade.

I’d never tell you if you asked

That I am sad behind my mask.

I watch as others’ lives go by,

Keep up a happy front but deep inside sometimes I cry.

But no one needs to know this,

Nobody needs to notice.

And every day repeats itself just like a comic sequence.

I know that all it takes is reach out my hand to stop being a passerby.

But it’s like a role you cannot grow out,

The clown mask which is I.

Keep watching other lives go by while mine stands sill,

And every now and then I see the same recurring dream.

It comes in different versions but sums into one thing,

To show how insignificant I am,

It’s funny how my happiness keeps slipping out from me.

Most of the time I just forget about my misery,

But it comes back to smack me in the face

Whenever I see you with someone else,

Or think of every chance I missed to not remain alone.

And every night when my friends go,

The curtain falls and I’m alone,

And there is nobody to hold and be there next to me

 I wish for wings so I could fly away way from here.

But nobody must see through my happy façade,

The mask I wear to hide my face behind.