by Tyrana
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The Nature of Pride
This is written in
Vegeta point of view. It's just an introspective
reflexion. Shounen-ai.
Disclaimer:I don't own
dragonball/DBZ/DBGT. They belong to
Akira Toriyama, TOEI and
FUNimation.
"THE NATURE OF PRIDE"
Pride. I've always relied
on my pride. It's been the source of my
strength, my support
against the horrors I had to endured under
Freeza, the bloody
bastard. I had to hide behind a mask of arrogance and
coldness to
survive all the humiliations I've been put through.
So I used
to think that the nature of my pride was courage and
strength.
Maybe that was true then, my pride was the only thing that kept
me
to be broken, that kept me sane through all the insanity
that
surrounded me.
The lizard raised me to be a heartless
murderer. I've been taught to feel
nothing, no remorse, no
compassion; for the world is a terrible place where
only the
strongest ones rule over everything and everyone. And the weak
ones
only deserve to suffer and die.
But now, this pride is
useless, is nothing but an obstacle to my
happiness. This pride,
which has nurtured my obsession to surpass
Kakarot, is just a
chain that enslave me to a past that I deeply abhor.
There's
no more Freeza, no tyrant who threats my dignity, noone to try
to
destroy my soul. Certainly,there's someone stronger than
me...but he's
different from everybody else. He could kill you
with a simple
punch...but still, he choses to show mercy. He
shows you affection, he
makes you feel that he cares for you; he
cherishes life and worships
every living creature. And yet, he's
completely free, nobody can defeat him
or rule him, nobody can
submitt his spirit or break his will. And that's
his real
strength.
So when I hide behind the mask of my usual arrogance
to insult him and
accuse him to be a disgrace for the saiyajin
race, I realize that the
nature of my pride, actually, is no more
strength and courage, but
cowardice and fear.
Yes, I,
Vegeta, prince of the saiyans, finally can admitt to myself that
I'm
just a fucking coward; because I'm afraid. Afraid to open myself,
to
reveal my true feelings. Afraid of closeness with the one I
longing
for. Afraid that he can see through my soul what I've
always considered a
weakness...But, why should I be afraid, I know
he never would mock me or
laugh at me, he would never used it
against me, I even have the hope that
he wouldn't reject me.
I'm
afraid to admitt that you are magnificent, Kakarot, for
having
accomplished what no other saiyan could.
You're the
pride of our race. You are my true pride,Kakarot. And maybe, one
day
I will be strong enough to admit that ,before you. And that day
I
will be proud of myself,too. Cause that day I will be free for
the first
time in my life. Free to begin a new life, free to find
happiness. And I'll
make sure that you will be my side,
Kakarot.
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