I am non-existent

I'm non-existent.

I am not attracted to anyone in any way of any gender. I have never been in a relationship nor been on a date nor even had a first kiss in my entire life. And I don't nor will I ever nor do I ever want to because it will mean that I have to be an adult and I don't want that. I like being a grown kid, I like to have fun and play and laugh. I can never do any of those things if I am an adult. I don't want responsibilities; I want to have fun forever. Plus, the people I tend to attract are single fathers who are looking for mothers for their kids, old guys, military guys, people that I don't have anything in common with, guys from desert countries, and creepy guys who only see me as a fetish.

I don't want anything to do with those people. I don't have any kids except my two dogs and cat. Old guys and guys with fetishes give me the creeps. Military guys are too strict for me, and I am sick and tired of getting friend requests from people that I don't have anything in common with, which is mostly guys, and I don't care if we are the same age. Yes, I checked their profiles and they barely have anything, just a picture or two, and their interest is mostly sports, outdoor activities, or their religious beliefs. So please don't send me a friend request, nor a private message, nor post on my timeline saying that I'm pretty and I have a beautiful smile, that raises red flags for me.

I no longer believe I have a gender. I maybe born a girl and have female parts, but I don't anything girly. I have hair on my chin and a barely visible mustache, but I shave them along with my legs and armpits, but only during the spring/summer months. I used to play with dolls like strawberry shortcake and a knock-off barbie doll, and play along make-up kit, but I also played with toy cars that you can pull back and let go and toy motorcycles with a possible rider and my brothers' Star Wars figurines.

The only dresses I have are 4 house dresses and one green dress with long sleeves. I wear mainly tee shirts and pants/shorts. I do have some blouses but I can only wear them for special occasions or if I am going someplace nice. I have 7 pairs of shoes (3 pairs of walking shoes, 2 pairs of sandals, and 2 pairs of boots) but they are all flat and wide. I have never worn high heels in my life. I have jewelry, but mostly fake, and I only wear them for holidays and special occasions going to nice places.

My favorite colors are purple, black, dark blue, and red. White, pink, yellow, orange, green, grey, and brown are my neutral colors. But I hate beige and manilla.

I like horror movies, sci-fi movies, action-adventure movies, fantasy movies, foreign monster movies, animated features, comic book movies, documentaries, and paranormal romantic comedies. Mamma Mia, Romeo and Juliet, and Moulin Rouge are two of my guilty pleasures, but I hate chick flicks, any movie from both hallmark and lifetime, westerns, and inspirational dramas.

I like to read gothic literature, sci-fi stories, fantasy, horror stories, comic/graphic novel/manga, fairy tales, supernatural studies, and supernatural/paranormal romance, especially comedy ones. But I hate historical romance, dramas, westerns, and inspirational stories.

I love watching cartoons and anime, sitcoms, and stand-up shows. My guilty pleasures are home renovations and food shows. But I hate reality shows, talent shows, news, and crime dramas.

I love making fan art and fanfiction, but I like to keep my work on an all-ages basis.

I like listening to gothic music, rock, heavy metal, steampunk, soundtracks, Asian music, Irish music but only during St Patrick Day season. Rap/hip-hop, retro, Michael Jackson, David Bowie, Meat Loaf, and music from black artists from the 60s and 70s. But I hate love songs that seems to go on for hours. (Celine Dion, Sarah Mclachlan, Michael Bolton and Kenny G) Celine Dion's My Heart Will Go has been played so much that it is the reason why I never wanted to go see Titanic.

I have two nintendo hand held video game platforms (DSi and 3DS) and I have on Casper game and lots of Pokemon Games. I play Pokemon Go. I play Disney Magic Kingdoms on my desktop and I play My Little Pony and other games on Facebook.

I like comfort food and junk food and sweets and candies. I am willing to go to a tea party of they have those cute and tasty treats. But I hate those tiny portions on big plates.

I collect plushies, reusable water bottles, drinking cups, tumblers, and bags.

I like drinking sodas, tea, juice, fruit punch, flavored coffee, icees and milk. But I hate alcohol and cold brew coffee without flavors. I can only drink wine/champagne if my town has some kind of special event and if I get to have water afterwards.

My favorite colors are purple, black, dark blue, and red. White, pink, yellow, orange, green, grey, and brown are my neutral colors. But I hate beige and manilla.

I have no ethnicity. I maybe Mexican decrescent, but I've never believed that I am Mexican. I love Italian food more than Mexican food. I hate anything spicy. I don't know how to make tamales. I don't speak Spanish. And I hate the sun.

For all I know, I'm not even human. I'm only the things that I like.

I am a grown kid, fun, play, horror movies, sci-fi movies, action-adventure movies, fantasy movies, foreign monster movies, animated features, comic book movies, documentaries, and paranormal romantic comedies. Mamma Mia, Romeo and Juliet, and Moulin Rouge, gothic literature, sci-fi stories, fantasy, horror stories, comic/graphic novel/manga, fairy tales, supernatural studies, and supernatural/paranormal romance, cartoons and anime, sitcoms, and stand-up shows, home renovations and food shows, gothic music, rock, heavy metal, steampunk, soundtracks, Asian music, Irish music but only during St Patrick Day season. Rap/hip-hop, retro, Michael Jackson, David Bowie, Meat Loaf, and music from black artists from the 60s and 70s, comfort food and junk food and sweets and candies, sodas, tea, juice, fruit punch, flavored coffee, icees and milk.

Those things are the ones who like and accepted me for me. They don't care who or what I am. They make me happy. And they give me pride.

Happy Pride Month.