I am a teenager who still finding the path that i must take in life.  i would like to think i am a happy good decent person.  People are always commenting on how high my morals are and how im such a good man but i just can't see it.  Somehow im always hurting folk emotionly.  i listen to mostly rock music with my favorites being ill nino, TDG, Loser, and Trapt.  i don't have many friends and it doesnt bothers me for the way i see it if i was meant to be friend with them i would be.  Following that line of thinking i always talk and befriend somewhat everyone who dares speaks to me.  im learning to play guitar because i feel that music is powerful in that it expresses one's emotions in a pure form.  i spend a great deal of my time studing metaphysics.  i love it so much i have almost lost touch with the world for i am forever lost in another.  i draw strengh from love either my own or my friends but also i feed off pain suffering and forlorn hope to a much lesser degree for it seems i a drowning in a pool of it but i cant myself be consume by it all so i keep a honest smile on my face and do what i must for i am not the only person hurting now am i?