Lost and Forgotten: Chapter 1

Lost and Forgotten

 

 

I have forgotten what it’s like to cry

Forgotten all the fears inside

Forgotten the dreams that held you close

Forgotten the things you loved the most

I forgot your name

Your scent 

Your feel

Forgot that I was trying to heal

Forgot the reason why I knew

Forgot what I was suppose to do

Forgot who I was looking for

And now I stand behind closed doors

Wondering how I made it through

Finding out if this is true

 

I’m alone now

I know nothing ells

But was I ever not?

I question if you were ever real

Not knowing how or why

Not knowing if your fingertips against my skin

 were nothing more than lies

 

Your skin

So soft

Pail

Just like snow

Dark chocolate eyes

That softened mine

And never let me go

 

A bitterness sweeps over me

Confusion blinds my sight

The doors swing open swiftly so

But I don’t see the light

 

A rush of pain

So sweet inside

It drives me to believe

That all this time

Your kind dark eyes

Are the reason why I bleed

 

But I don’t feel the blood

Oh no that’s too quaint

The bliss of ignorance

Oh how I fear

What’s in your tears   

That made me loose my soul

I want it back

I want you back

Even if you’re fake

 

Even if my blood is cold and shallow

And your eyes are warm and deep

 

I’ll feel again

I know I can

And I’ll remember too

Remember what you tasted like

All rapped up in my sins

Remember what crimson life felt like

 Pouring dawn your skin    

 

You’ll belong to me

And I to you

And all will be the same

And I won’t have to wonder if 

I’m really just insane