As my heart struggled: As my heart struggled

As my heart struggled, I didn’t mean to yell, I didn’t mean to rush you. Things just seem to happen, when I let my heart become my eyes, the judgement falls, and I become happy, only with you. Scared, my one wish blessed me so dearly, raised me into the stars so that my dreams slipped in with a smile, no longer an escape, but a sanctuary for your love. I don’t need to explain it, because it just seemed to happen, you don’t need to question, because there is no answer. All I know is now that you’ve walked away, im holding my breathe. Now that you look away, im falling. Now that that I just cant touch you, im crying. I hold onto your essence as if it were life, life that I just cant lose, because I cant bare to die. Not again. When I close my eyes, tears roll down my cheeks, because all I see is you. When I fall into bed, I curl up, because I can still feel you hold me. I know youre afraid, deep down I am too. But I know that with you, im the happiest I could be. My blind trust in you is a miracle, something that was obtained against all of my beliefs. And its all for you. So all I can do is wait, as tears just keep coming. All I can do is hope, that youll come back to hold me with pure trust, true love, blind faith.