If only he knew: Chapter 1

It simply cannot be. It's all in my mind, filled with dark corners and twisted aspects. The will is not my own it seems. Two beings conflict in one essence. One is dark and tired, only lusting harm and hate. The other; spirited and lively. Happiness is life, and everything you see is a new idea. A blind battle. Even if it's won, i'll still be haunted and persisted by my dark sister. She has fought firmly for her say in my heart.

If only he knew. I must hold him dear, protect him from the wincing darkness then show him the brilliance of twilight. I want to thunder with him through the ocean; riding the waves like soaring steeds, pounding earth and water with each heart skipping gate. I want to fall whimsy from the clouds with him and let feathers and butterflies caress our fall into everything beautiful. I want him to be joyous in every endeavor and see the world not for its material possessions, but for it's whispering poetry; In every drifting cloud, every trickle of sunlight and every gorgeous song of midnight. The twilight breathes the most breathtaking silent song of wonder. It's the inspiration of dreams.

I wish he knew. I wish he could feel my earth shattering love in each kiss, until it spiraled down his back, making his whole body shiver orgasmicly as his spirit simply leaped from every aspect of his being. Then he would feel hot, as if a fluffed wool blanket had been tenderly tucked around him.

I wish he knew the intensity of my love and I wish I weren't so careless with his fragile emotions. I want to take care of you my angel, just as you do me. I'm sorry for bringing you any unpleasance. My truest words to you ____ is this; I want only everything of pure happiness to come to you. I don't want you to know any other way of life. I'd do anything to help you come closer to that.

Seriously, tell me what I can do my love, and it will be done. I cant bare to see that frantic look in your eyes when I'm brought down and i start to take you with me. If anything in my life is pure enough for your haven, it would be my love for you. Its stronger then any other force in existence. I could fly to the moon with my love for you, and I could touch any star that I wished.