Chapter 6: A Stolen Kiss
Time for a Change
Chapter Six
By: Lori Finnegan
2006
On the way out of Potions, Draco and Blaise walked in front of Hermione, elbowing each other in the ribs and laughing about something or other, though Hermione had a pretty good idea of what. Behind her, Crabbe and Goyle were fantasizing about their next meal, and Hermione, being sandwiched between four too many Slytherins, couldnât wait to grab a bag lunch from the Great Hall and sneak unnoticed back to Pansyâs room for a long study session.
But before they arrived at the Great Hall, Draco crept up besides Hermione and had his arm around her waist before she could hit him away.
âSo how about some late night Arithmancy lessons?â he said into her ear.
Hermione shoved him away so hard that he spent the next minute or so rubbing his shoulder. âYou wish, Balloon Head,â she muttered. âIâve got tons of my own homework to do, so I most certainly wonât be doing yours for you.â
Draco jumped in front of her, walking backwards as they moved along the hall. âI wasnât talking about homework,â he winked. âBut if you insist. Iâll just spend my night alone, studying my Arithmancy all by my lonesome.â
She shoved past him. âYou are disgusting!â she exclaimed, and rushed ahead of the group. âSee you guys later, I have too much homework to think about dinner!â
Just before she turned around, she caught a glimpse of Blaise waving back at her as Draco pouted. Crabbe and Goyle, on the other hand, were still drooling, imagining what was to come when they reached the Great Hall.
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After Potions, Harry was still thinking of his conversation with Ron. He should have never told Ron about his feelings for Hermione, but it was too late now. He had already done the damage.
He thought about just telling Hermione about everything just to get it out in the open so that Ronâs relationship with Hermione would be spared, but the thought of actually saying the words out loud so that Hermioneâs ears would hear them, scared him beyond reason.
That was definitely not an option. Not right now, anyway.
He opened the door to his dormitory, Ron and Neville following in behind him. They all set their things down and settled themselves in the room. Harry sat on his bed and pulled out his Transfiguration homework from his back pack.
âYou know,â he heard Neville say from the other side of the room. âSomething seems really peculiar to me lately.â
âOh?â Ron and Harry said in unison.
âYeahâŚâ Neville went on as Harry turned to look at him. âItâs Hermione.â
Harryâs head spun towards Ron, his eyes wide as if to say, âI told you so.â
âSheâs just different than she usually is,â Neville continued, and Harry and Ronâs heads snapped back to look at him. âHave you two noticed?â he asked. âIs there something going on that I donât know about?â When neither Harry nor Ron said anything, Neville sat down on his bed and gave a nervous smile. âI mean, you donât have to tell me if itâs not something sheâd like shared, but I was just concerned.â
âNo,â Harry said finally. âItâs okay. And actually, we donât know whatâs going on with her either. I was just thinking that something seemed a little off a few days ago, but this dolt here,â he stuck his thumb over his shoulder at Ron, âassured me that everything was ship shape, and I was thinking too much about things.â
âI donât know,â Neville sighed, looking down at his hands. âItâs not really in an obvious sort of way⌠but itâs just small things. Like, last week, Hermione told me sheâd help me with my Potions homework⌠but then when I asked her about it yesterday, she gave me a really strange look before agreeing. It was as if she had no idea what I was talking about.â
âMaybe she was just distracted or something,â Ron offered.
âMaybe,â Harry considered. âI think Iâm going to talk to her again though⌠and see if something is bothering her, or if something is on her mind that she hasnât been talking to us about.â
âI still think youâre overreacting,â Ron muttered.
âEven so, Ron,â Harry said, turning towards him. âIf something is bothering her, we should try our best to help her.â
Ron narrowed his eyes at Harry. âPerhaps whatâs bothering her is that a certain someone wonât tell her a certain thing thatâs been on his mind.â
âHey,â Harry said, his voice rising slightly. âThatâs not fair, Ron, and you know it.â
Ron looked away from him. âSorry,â he mumbled, but Harry didnât think he meant it.
âYeah,â Harry said, getting up from his bed and walking towards the door. He looked back at both Ron, and then at Neville, who looked very confused about what had just transpired, and put his hand on the door knob. âSee you guys later. Iâm going to go find Hermione.â
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Pansy, looking incredibly suspicious, she was sure, had crept down into the dungeons and into her secret underground hideout and where she and Hermione were stashing their secret potion. She was sick of people looking at her and thinking she was Hermione. She just wanted to be herself and act like herself⌠and the Slytherin hideout was the only place she could think of where no one would even come close to bothering her, much less finding her.
Just as she was about to enter the room, a hand snatched her wrist. She gasped, looking up and wondering who had caught her.
âHermione!â she hissed, seeing her own face staring at her with wide eyes.
âYes, itâs me!â Hermione hissed back. âWhat do you think youâre doing down here? And you shouldnât call me that when anyone could come around the corner. People will either figure us out or think weâre crazy!â
âI know!â Pansy said, wriggling her wrist away from Hermioneâs grasp. âYou just startled me, geez! And why are we standing out here arguing? We should at least go inside.â She pushed the door open and then pulled Hermione in by her sleeve.
âGood,â Hermione agreed after the door was securely shut behind them. âI wanted to talk to you anyway. We didnât really have a lot of time to talk this morning.â
Pansy rolled her eyes. âDonât take this personally, Hermione, but chatting with you wasnât exactly the first thing on my list this morning.â
âAnd speaking of which,â Hermione said, continuing Pansyâs train of thought. âHow are things going with Harry and Ron? Have you figured out whatâs going on yet?â
âAh,â Pansy said, meaning to sound a bit disinterested so that this little talk wouldnât go on for too long. She did have massive homework, after all. âTrouble in paradise, obviously,â she said. âReally, I have my suspicions, I mean, those two best friends of yours are completely transparent, but I havenât gotten either one of them to tell me anything definite.â
Hermione gave a small, frustrated sigh. âThose two are so stubborn. But I donât know what I was expecting. They are boys, after all.â
âYou should have more girl friends,â Pansy pondered. The only girl that Hermione seemed to be friends with so far was Ronâs little sister, Ginny. And that was only by association, she suspected.
âYou should talk!â Hermione exclaimed. âAll you have are boys following after you day after day after day⌠I canât lose them!â
Pansy sighed and leaned against the door. âMaybe we should just both turn in our resignations and transfer to another school. An all girlsâ school. Do you know how less complicated that would make everything?â
âNo kidding,â Hermione agreed as she walked over towards the secret door on the left side of the room. âHey, PansyâŚâ she said slowly. âSince weâre here together, we might as well check on the potion.â
âGood idea,â Pansy said, and followed Hermione into the secret room.
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After checking on the potion, Hermione no longer felt like sitting down to a long night of homework. Instead, she said a quick goodbye to Pansy and then headed up the stairs and out a side door of the castle. A nice long walk around the lake would be a nice break from the tension inside the Slytherin dungeons, and she really needed the fresh air.
As she pushed the door open, a cool gust of air hit her face, and then her arms and legs as she stepped out into the cold air. Quickly wrapping Pansyâs cloak around herself, she walked over the yellowing grass and down the hill until she had reached the edge of the lake. The sun was a good distance from setting, so she figured if she walked quickly she could make it back before it was completely dark.
She was halfway around the lake and picking up her pace as the sun quickly slipped further down the sky when she saw a dark figure sitting on a bench. A little hesitant, she slowed down, squinting her eyes and trying to make out a face. But the sun was behind the bench, and whoever he was, was completely in silhouette.
As she stepped closer to the bench, the fear rose in her chest. That was until he turned to look at her and just the right amount of sun hit his face.
It was Harry!
When their eyes met, Harry quickly looked away from her. Hermione didnât know if she should say something to him, or just walk by without a word. If she said something, would he become suspicious of everything that was going on? Or would he think that perhaps Pansy was just being nice to him for a change?
She decided not to take a chance, and just kept on walking as she passed him.
âWait,â Harry said quietly, and she stopped in her tracks. âWhat are you doing here, walking around the lake all by yourself? Itâs almost dark.â
Hermione turned around, her heart beating rapidly. âI can take care of myself,â she said, looking back into his green eyes. âDonât worry about me.â
Harry shrugged, standing up from the bench himself. âIâm going back,â he announced, which seemed odd to Hermione. âYou can walk back with me if you want.â
And Hermione missed being his friend so much, that she waited for him to step up to her and they both walked down the lake path together. She wanted to tell him about everything that had occurred in the past few days, and let him talk about what he had been up to, and how much he and Ron had missed herâŚ
But the truth was, they didnât miss her. They still had her because of Pansy. It was such a strange situation, and once again, Hermione felt like crying because of it all.
As they rounded the lake, she finally worked up the courage to talk to him as Pansy would. âWhy are you being so nice to me?â
âItâs been a rough day,â he said, putting his hands into the pockets of his robes. âI just donât have the energy for anything else.â
âOh,â she said, still wanting to say so much more. âI really would have been fine walking on my own, though. You donât have to worry about me.â
âWhatever,â Harry mumbled.
The rest of the walk back to the castle was silent, but not at all awkward for Hermione. Just walking by his side was enough to fill the hole within her. She felt a little more reconnected to her friend, especially after the past few days.
Although, as she watched him walk up the stairs and back to the Gryffindor Tower, part of her felt cheated; like what she had been missing was just out of her reach. She sighed, and walked back to the Slytherin dungeons in hopes of avoiding everyone so that she could get started on her homework.
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Harry arrived back in the Gryffindor Common Room around seven oâclock that evening to find Hermione sitting in a chair, reading a book, and jotting down notes into a notebook.
âThere you are,â he said, walking over to her and sitting down at the end of the couch. âIâve been looking everywhere for you.â
She looked up from her book. âOh? You need me for something?â
Harry leaned up against the arm of the couch and propped his chin up on the palm of his hand. It hurt a little bit for Hermione to think that the only reason Harry would be looking for her was because he needed her for something. âNo,â he said, looking away from her face and into the fire. âI just wanted to talk to you about something.â
Hermione finally put her books down and really looked at him. âWhat is it?â
He took a deep breath, trying to calm his nerves, but it didnât really seem to be working.âHermione,â he finally said, his voice soft. âRon and I have been talking latelyâŚâ
âThatâs great!â she suddenly grinned. âI was convinced that the two of you werenât getting along very well. But Iâm glad to see that youâve made up!â
âNo,â Harry went on, sitting up straight. âThatâs not really what we were talking about. I mean, yeah, weâre getting along okay, I guess,â he muttered. âBut we were talking about you.â
Hermioneâs eyes widened. âMe?â
âYeah⌠itâs just that⌠that youâve been a little⌠different lately. And we canât really figure out whatâs going on, so instead of just talking about it behind your back I wanted to talk to you directly.â
Hermione looked nervous all of a sudden, and her cheeks turned a deeper shade of pink. âWhat do you meanâŚâ she said, ââŚdifferent?â
Harry felt the tension go up in the room. He felt a little panicked and started to wonder if maybe he shouldnât have even brought the subject up with her. âI know youâve denied it before,â he went on, âbut it really seems like thereâs something going on with you. And Iâm your friend,â he added. âI would hope that if something is bothering you, that you would trust me enough to share it with me.â
She tapped the end of her quill on the arm of the chair thoughtfully. âHmm, well, thatâs strange, Harry, because it seems like just a few days ago, I was saying the same thing to you. And you insisted that you couldnât tell me. Letâs see⌠how is this situation similar?â
Harry felt his face turn red. She was right. During Quidditch tryouts it had been Hermione asking him if something was wrong. And he had completely brushed her aside, assuring her that everything was okay, and she didnât need to concern herself over his personal matters.
And now he knew how she felt.
âIâm sorry,â he said, looking down at his hands. âYouâre right. I shouldnât have said anything.â He stood up, and without meeting her gaze, began walking back towards the boysâ dormitories. He had just reached the first stair when he felt her fingers wrapping around his arm.
âWait,â she said. âYou canât just walk away from me like that!â
He turned around to look into her flashing eyes as he fought the tears in his own. He felt ashamed and stupid⌠and worst of all, he felt like he had let her down. How in the hell had this happened?
âIâm not mad,â Hermione said. âSo you donât have to look at me like that.â
âHow am I supposed to look?â he demanded, pulling his arm away from her grasp and stepping up another step to keep some distance between them. âI just asked you the same question that you asked me before. And I tried to make you feel guilty for not telling me whatâs going on in your life. And youâre not mad?â He didnât wait for her to answer. âHermione, Iâm a horrible friend!â
She stepped up onto the first step, surprising him so much that he clutched the railing behind himself. âYouâre not,â she assured him. âDo you know how many horrible friends Iâve had before? Iâve most certainly had enough to know that youâre not one of them. So you made a mistake, and yeah, maybe you werenât thinking clearly⌠but who cares? You have my best interests in mind, donât you?â
Harry felt like his voice was caught in his throat. He tried to say something, but nothing came out.
They stood there staring at each other for a very long moment, until Harry just couldnât take it another second. He slipped his arms around her waist, and pulled her close, leaning down to plant a heavy kiss directly onto her lips.
It didnât last all that long, but to Harry, it seemed like a slow motion eternity until she pulled away from him, breathing heavily. Harryâs blood pressure rose, and a silent alarm went off in his head. This was not something that he was supposed to do.
âI am really sorry, Hermione,â he sputtered out, releasing her from his grasp and turning around so quickly to run up the stairs that she didnât even have a chance to respond.
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Pansy stood at the bottom of the staircase that led to the boysâ dormitories with her hand on her chest, still trying to catch her breath. She had never wondered what Harry Potterâs kiss tasted like before, but at that second, when she could still taste his lips on her own, she wondered what it would be like if the kiss had lasted a little bit longer.
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Harry slammed the door to his room and tried to calm himself down by breathing slowly and deeply. He leaned against the door and closed his eyes, trying to drown out the constant replay of the previous events in his mind, but nothing worked.
âEverything alright, Harry?â Nevilleâs voice interrupted his thoughts, and Harryâs eyes flew open.
âNo,â he said honestly, the calm tone of his voice surprising him. âEverything is not alright.â
Neville was sitting on his bed, reading one of his text books. He stared at Harry for a moment.âAnything you want to talk about?â he finally asked.
âNo,â Harry said simply, willing his legs to work so they would take him to his bed.
Neville looked worried but didnât say another word. When Harry finally got to his bed, he pulled the curtains and threw himself into his pillow. He spent the next hour staring at the maroon fabric that surrounded him and trying to figure out ways to undo what he had done.
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Thursday morning came around much quicker than Hermione was planning for. She had fallen asleep around eleven the night before, and she still had about an hour of homework left to do. She rolled out of bed around six oâclock that morning and hurriedly finished up the final assignment so she could deliver it to Pansy after breakfast.
When she exited her room and walked around to the Slytherin Common Room, she saw Draco and his friends sitting around the warm fireplace, waiting for her arrival. Crabbe and Goyle jumped up excitedly, probably starving after a whole night of not eating, while Draco and Blaise slowly rose from their seats.
âThere you are,â Draco said, taking her hand the moment she was close enough that he could reach out for it. âWeâve been waiting for you for ten whole minutes.â
âTen horrible minutes!â Goyle groaned. He and Crabbe were already waiting for everyone at the door.
Draco pulled her to the door before she had a chance to object.
âI had a lot of homework,â she said. âSo I was finishing things up this morning.â
âYou know, Pans,â Draco said as the five of them walked down the dungeon halls. âYou seem a lot more studious lately. Youâll have to make sure some of that brushes off on me soon. My motivation for school stuff is just killing me lately. Father is starting to get suspiciousâŚâ
Hermione had to stop herself from shuddering at the mention of Dracoâs father. He was positively the most evil man, save Voldemort, that she had ever come in contact with. âIâm sorry, Draco,â she said, after she pushed the thought of his father out of her mind. âBut youâll just have to find your motivation on your own.â She let go of his hand and moved to the front of the group. Draco being so touchy-feely was starting to unnerve her.
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Meanwhile, Pansy hadnât slept a wink that night. She was too busy berating herself over her thoughts of Harry Potter. It was absolutely disgusting, really. She might as well have herself committed for going insane. It was that bad.
She crept out of bed extra early that morning and exited the Gryffindor Common Room before anyone could stop her. She decided sheâd get breakfast early, without Harry and Ron by her side, and then sneak away to the library and work a little on her assignments before Hermione showed up at seven thirty.
Unluckily for Pansy, Ron must have had the same idea, because he was already sitting at the very end of the table when she arrived at the Great Hall.
âHey,â she said in a sleepy voice, plopping down in the seat next to him and throwing her backpack underneath the bench. âYouâre here early.â
âSo are you,â Ron mumbled before taking a large gulp of orange juice. âWhatâs up?â
Pansy piled toast and strips of bacon onto her plate. She figured after how this morning was going to go, she wouldnât have any appetite at all when it came to lunch. âJust sleepy,â she said to Ron before biting off the end of a piece of bacon. âI couldnât sleep so I came here early. What about you?â
âSame,â Ron replied. âItâs going to be a long day.â
âYouâre telling me,â she mumbled through a mouthful of bacon. If she was going to get out of the Great Hall before Harry arrived, she would have to eat quickly.
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Hermione had just arrived to their corner in the library, but, she noticed, Pansy was well settled there already. Pansy was sitting in the chair next to the window, and she had stacks of books and pieces of parchment spread out over the whole table. Hermione set her books down beside a chair and sat down quietly.
âBehind on some things?â she asked, watching as Pansy scribbled something onto a piece of parchment.
âI guess you could say that,â Pansy replied, not bothering to look up. âIâm almost done here,â she said after a moment. âDo you mind just waiting for a few minutes?â
âOh, sure,â Hermione agreed. âI have some things I could look over as well.â She reached down into her bag and pulled out her Potions text book. Professor Snape had a bad habit of giving pop quizzes.
After a few moments, Pansy began packing up her things. She set a pile of her homework in front of Hermione and then stood up. Hermione looked up at her.
âIs something wrong?â Hermione wanted to know. âYou seem a little⌠quiet.â
âNothingâs wrong,â Pansy said quickly as she brushed her hair behind her ear. âIâve just had a lot of homework. I didnât have much time to sleep last night.â
Hermione noticed the slight darkness beneath her eyes, but shrugged and picked up the stack of homework. She put it into her bag and then handed Pansy her own homework. âThey have been giving out a lot of homework lately, havenât they?â she said. âI hope they let up on us a little before Christmas break.â
âYeah,â Pansy agreed, her voice quiet. âMe, too.â
âHey,â Hermione said as the two of them zipped their backpacks closed. âHave you found out what was going on with Harry and Ron? We havenât talked about that for awhile.â
Pansy shook her head. âNo, both of them are so stubborn. I havenât been able to get a word out of them. Ginny has even tried to help me. I havenât heard back on that, though.â
âOh,â Hermione said, sighing softly. She was hoping for some sort of answer. After her late night walk with Harry last night, she was just dying to know what was going on. âWell, maybe one of them will give it up soon. How long could they keep a secret thatâs obviously bugging them so much? Itâll be eating them up inside.â
âYeah,â Pansy shrugged, and then lifted her backpack over her shoulders. âI guess. Well, see you in class.â
Hermione stood and watched her walk away. Class didnât start for another twenty minutes.
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Harry had skipped breakfast that morning. He had thought about his actions all night and decided it was best to just not discuss anything regarding the kiss because that would bring up reasons⌠like why he had done it, and he had no idea how he would squirm his way out of that one.
Instead of breakfast, he went hungry. He stayed in bed until he was sure Ron and his other roommates had left, and then spent the rest of the early morning pushing his problems out of his mind and studying for his classes that day. He was most nervous about getting his Transfiguration essay back. He had been so preoccupied lately, he had put it off till the last second and by then it was too late to really spend time on the essay. Well, that and the fact that Professor McGonagall was a really tough grader.
Just before class started, he shoved his books into his backpack, changed into his school clothes and then left the room, slamming the door behind him.
By the time he arrived in the Transfiguration classroom, Ron and Hermione were already sitting in their seats at the front of the room, and Professor McGonagall gave him a look that clearly meant he had just made it under the wire.
Perfect.
He slipped into his seat next to Ron and at the end of the isle and pulled his transfiguration text book out of his bag. Class went on as usual, and even though Hermione was only sitting one seat away from him, he didnât have to say one word to her.
Not yet, anyway.
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