Fuck Buddies or Sex Friends?: Changes

 

“I guess…this is goodbye…”

Sessho-maru glanced at Fawks, her long red hair fluttered in the wind shielding her face from him.

“Kagome may come back to stay for Inu-yasha but…I don’t have a reason like that” she shrugged.

Sessho-maru’s gaze was cold and uncaring. Fawks suddenly felt angry with herself for expecting him to be any different.

“Any way, it shouldn’t be so hard for you to find another bitch willing to suck you off” Fawks smirked.

“Too true” Sessho-maru responded without mirth. Fawks felt her heart clench painfully, she tried to push it away.

“…We…had a good run, didn’t we?” she asked, her fears beginning to surface.

Sessho-maru inclined his head, “Mm, I quite enjoyed our time together”

‘Yeah I just bet you did…’ Fawks sweatdropped. He turned on his heel heading in the opposite direction, Fawks turned as well. With that their relationship was over.

Towards the end of their journey to kill Naruku and find the shikon shards, they had become lovers. But Fawks now saw that it was nothing but a title. He never loved her, never cared about her as she had him.

In fact all she was to him was a glorified whore, only meant to be used for his pleasure. This fact wouldn’t have bothered her several months ago when they decided to enter into the seedy relationship. But now it ate at the core of her very being.

She had told him everything, about the death of her mother, the abuse she received from her father, even about being raped as a child. She thought he had cared, had understood but now she saw their talks, his care and understanding, as what they really were: clever ploys to get into her pants.

‘…and the sick thing is…it worked…’

Fawks suddenly felt disgusted with herself. In the past, she had never cared about what anyone thought of her or what they said, the only thing that mattered was her and what she wanted. She had convinced herself that she didn’t mind him using her for sex, wanted it even. But after all was said and done she felt disgusting and dirty.

 

“Oh, Fawks-chan, you’re home” Her sister chirped as she entered the house.

“Where’s the old bastard?”

“…Father is away on business” Miyako cleared her throat uncomfortably. Fawks said nothing, heading upstairs to her room.

“Fawks-chan?”

Fawks stripped off her clothes as if they were filthy, stepping into the shower. She ran the water as hot as it would go, tilting her head up into the flow of water, she shut her eyes.

‘It’s over now…your back home, back in your own time. You’ll never have to see him again…’

But the realization didn’t make her feel any better, if anything, it made her ache worse. She stood there until the water ran cold, shutting it off, Fawks grabbed a towel. Wiping the mist off the mirror she gazed pensively into her reflection.

Her neck had red marks from his kisses leading a little trail down that ended with teeth marks encircling her left breast. Her hips still had puncture marks from his claws grabbing them too tightly.

“…Whore…” Fawks muttered, her hands clenching into fists. “I’m nothing but a whore…”

 

 “Fawkeisha-chan?” Miyako called opening the door. Fawks lay face down on the bed, her head buried in a pillow.

“Are you alright? You’ve barely made a sound since you got home…”

Fawks shook her head.

“Fawkeisha-chan, I’m your sister, you know you can tell me anything” Miyako smiled, placing a hand on her back. Fawks squeezed the pillow.

“Sis…I did something…really stupid” she muttered.

“Eh?”

“…I thought he loved me…I…”

“Shh, it’s alright…” Miyako cooed.

“No it’s not! I gave myself to him, I let him use me any way he wanted. God I’m such a slut…” Fawks wept.

“You’re teenager. You’re allowed to make mistakes, to fall in love with a stupid boy only to realize he’s stupid a little too late” Miyako smiled. Fawks looked up at her, Miyako gently wiped away her younger sisters tears. “I promise you that painful feeling won’t last forever”

Fawks nodded

 “You’re a beautiful and intelligent girl, you’ll find someone new in no time”

“…Yeah? Well, I’m gonna be celibate for a while thanks” Fawks sighed.

Miyako looked at her thoughtfully, “You’ve got four years to figure out what you’re doing with yourself. I know you, Fawkeisha-chan and I know you could do without distractions especially now. I was going to tell you a little later but…you could use some cheering up”

Fawks blinked as Miyako held up a key.

“The high school you’re going to is a while away but not that far from the college I’ve chosen. I was thinking…we could live together away from father for awhile…so I bought a place…”

“…Don’t play with me, sis…” Fawks began.

“I’m serious!” Miyako laughed. Fawks’ eyes filled with tears and she threw her arms around her sister.

“I guess that means you like the idea”

“Like it? I’m so happy I could die” Fawks laughed. “I’m gonna start packing right now!”