Chapter 1: Secrets
Sunlight filtered in through the window, drifting across Fawksâ face. She opened her eyes, blinking against it as Sessho-maru rose from the bed. She watched him stretch and a small smile tugged at her lips, at times like this, she was utterly at peace. In the few hours spent with him, she could pretend everything was alright, she could forget the world and just be his woman.
Sessho-maru pulled on a robe, âYou should go, Iâm sure Tensei will be looking for youâŚâ
And just like that the illusion was shattered, Fawks sat up, tucking the sheet to her chest. âYes, my lord. I will be ready in a momentâŚâ
She was unsteady on her feet, Sessho-maru caught her as she stumbled but she shoved him away. Now that their time together was over, she didnât want him treating her like a lover.
ââŚI was too rough with youâŚâ he commented.
âIâm fineâ she snapped, pulling on her own yukata. âShouldnât you be off, my lord? Iâm sure your mate and son are wondering where you areâ
Sessho-maru didnât even flinch at the barb, it seemed he had come to terms with what they were doing better then Fawks had. Maybe it was a demon thing she didnât understand yet. Fawks cinched her robe shut, turning to go, she needed to bathe, to rid herself of his scent and touch. To forget about him until the next time, and there would be a next time. He said nothing as she left and for that Fawks was grateful.
Itnasha met her in the hallway, his expression unreadable. She didnât meet his eyes, didnât stop as she continued on her way to the bathhouse.
âWhat do you want?â
âNothingâŚI was just thinking about what a faithless mate you areâŚâ he said, easily following her stride.
âCut the crap, Iâm not your mateâ she spat.
It was all an act, a ploy devised by Sessho-maru to keep her close, to keep anyone from suspecting what was really going on between them.
âBut everyone believes you are, so it would be best if you didnât sneak around to another manâs chambers in the middle of the nightâ he warned grabbing her arm. Fawks pulled out of his grasp, snarling, âTell that to your cousin. He summoned me so I had to goâ
Itnasha glared at her, âIf you refused him heâd leave you alone, you know that. You donât have to stay here, Sessho-maru would let you go if you asked it of himâŚâ
âAnd where would we go? I canât go back to my own time, not with the way I am nowâŚnot with TenseiâŚâ Fawks sighed wearily, âAnd if I stayed here in the past with her, sheâd never be safe. It wouldnât take people long to figure out who her father really is, there would be a target on our backs. Itâs hard enough trying to keep the truth from Lady Sachiko as it isâŚâ
Itnasha sighed, and she turned from him again.
âTenseiâŚshe calls me âpapaâ you knowâŚâ he sighed.
âLet her keep thinking thatâŚâ Fawks threw over her shoulder as she left him.
After her bath, Fawks went out to the servantâs quarters.
âGood morning, Fawks-samaâ Several women greeted her as they washed clothes.
âMorningâ she beamed.
âPoor lassâŚso young and tasked with guarding Lord Sessho-maru all day and sometimes late into the nightâŚâ
âAnd with such a young child to look after, one would think her mate would at least complainâŚ!â
Fawks glimpse several servantâs children playing with a spinning top, one of them looked back at her, âTen-chan, your maâs hereâŚ!â
The little girl poked her head up, her golden green eyes flashing, âMommy!â
Fawks opened her arms as the child ran to her, scooping her up as she wrapped her tiny arms around her neck.
âGood morning, Tensei, did you sleep well?â Fawks beamed at her.
The child nodded energetically, âPapa kept me company, but I missed mommyâ
âI know, Iâm sorryâŚâ
âDid Lord Sessho-maru have a hard time sleeping?â Tensei blinked.
Fawks started, âWhat?â
âKaku-chan says that Lord Sessho-maru canât sleep and so he makes you keep him company. Why doesnât he just get Lady Sachiko to do it?â Tensei pouted. Fawks smiled softly, smoothing back the girlâs strawberry blonde hair.
âIâm part of Lord Sessho-maruâs main guard. Itâs my job to protect himâŚâ
âWhy canât papa or uncle Gin or uncle Mame do it?â
âUncle Ginzo and uncle Mamezou looks after Lady Sachiko and the little lordship. Your papa and I take turns guarding Lord Sessho-maru when he has to work lateâŚâ Tensei looked like she was about to say more but she didnât, instead she leaned her head into her motherâs neck. Fawks said nothing, holding her daughter close to her. Tensei was at that age where she asked a lot of questions but she always seemed to stop when it came to the difficult ones.
She never asked why Lord Sessho-maru would request her motherâs presence at seemingly random periods during the day and night. She never asked why she didnât look like her âpapaâ even though Fawks knew other children had asked her that question. She never asked why she wasnât allowed in the main palace or, on the few occasions her mother let her come with her, why she had to cover her face.
âLetâs go get some breakfast, ne?â Fawks began. Tensei nodded and she kissed the childâs cheek.
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