Quest: Contemplation

Quest
Sequel to Maintaining
By Pixelgoddess

Summary: Whew! That's hard. This takes up basically where Maintaining left off. Frieza has caused some incredible issues for the Saiyans to overcome, but they are trying. What will it take for them to finally become mates? Yaoi, Yuri. Goku x Vegeta, Chichi x Rezu (OC)
Disclaimer: If I owned it, don't you think there would have been more decent girls to write about?
Warnings: *snickers* Whaddya got? Sex. Rape and it's aftermath. Violence. Bad words. Gay marriage. Krillin-bashing. Dyke Chichi. Straight Gohan. Confused Dende. Smart-ass Piccolo. I think that covers it - for now.
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Introduction

Stupid, pointless comment - I see my stories in certain fonts - it just kind of describes the tone for me. So, if you care, this is in Ashby Light.
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Wait! Stop! If you haven't read Maintaining, this section is going to be full of spoilers, and you may not understand what is going on.

I'm warning you. Keep reading and you are going to ruin all the lovely plot twists I've thrown into my previous epic.

You aren't listening, are you?

*sigh*

Stubborn readers.

Okay, but don't come crying to me later.

Summaries, reminders, and the story thus far...

Frieza is a fucking, twisted, evil bastard. Besides his rape and torture of Vegeta, he had a few other nasty plans - which have been tormenting Vegeta for the past 18 months or so. When Vegeta was a child, he implanted a slave chip in the boy, taking advantage of a long forgotten and outlawed master-slave bond. And....

You know what? The summary is going to be as long as the original story....

Here's the quick version - in no logical order...(faithful readers will be amused, and new readers will be confused)
Frieza tortured Vegeta in hell after the prince died fighting Buu. The chip is burned out, the brainwashing still is there somewhere. Vegeta is in love with Goku and always calls him Kakorr because he loves him so much. Goku is in love with Vegeta even though he raped him because of Frieza's brainwashing and calls him Makoto sometimes. (Makoto means truth; faith; sincerity; trust; confidence; reliance; devotion) Vegeta reached level three when he killed Frieza (whom he wished back with the dragonballs while under the control of the chip) because Frieza was going to kill Goku after Vegeta killed him and brought him back. The subject of mating has never come up between the Saiyans, because Vegeta was too young to learn when Vegeta-sei existed, and now he doesn't know how. Piccolo is Vegeta's best friend. Bulma is marrying Yamcha, but we don't really care as long as she keeps feeling guilty about dumping Vegeta and keeps a roof over the Saiyans' heads. Chichi is a lesbian and she is marrying her girlfriend, Rezu (which means lesbian) and we do care because we like them. Gohan is straight, although he has experimented (once with Dende and Videl, but we aren't going to go there because it is verging on squick). Dende was an idiot, but it wasn't his fault and he is trying to be better. Krillin is an asshole, and we don't like him, and may be bumped off at the first possible opportunity - no promises. Goku and Vegeta have a bond because of their fusion and it is having strange side effects, making them act like each other sometimes. When they get carried away during sex, they blow up parts of the house (which is why we need Bulma to keep a roof over their heads). The Kais are devious, twisted bastards and we don't trust them as far as we can spit, especially because they wanted Vegeta to die.

Confused? Good.

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Chapter 1 - Contemplation

Vegeta smiled down at his sleeping lover and stroked the black spikes. Kakorr's head was resting on his chest and had somehow managed to twist their tails together. Moments like this made him glad Kakorr had kept him from killing himself.

He looked up at the fading stars overhead and tried to remember when Kakarott had become his Kakorr...it had happened so gradually, but one day he realized how much he loved the young Saiyan - it had been Kakorr ever since.

Kakorr stayed with him through the whole ordeal and his patience and love were slowly convincing him that maybe it wasn't entirely his fault. Kakorr was never angry with him for what had happened, blaming it on the brainwashing. Still, he couldn't help but wonder - what if he had been stronger? What if he had resisted the lizard more? Would he have been able to prevent himself from torturing and raping his beloved Kakorr?

Kakorr stubbornly insisted he had resisted - he was supposed to be dead, after all. Vegeta had stopped just seconds from actually destroying the first person he truly loved. He had stopped and saved Kakorr from the revived, gloating Frieza.

The lizard had been over-confident; sure that Vegeta would not be able to resist the slave chip that had been implanted when he was still a child. Frieza had used it since Vegeta's return from hell - controlling him without his knowledge, taking over his body to collect the dragonballs, and wishing himself back to life.

Vegeta almost hadn't been able to resist, preferring death at the lizard's hands to living with the knowledge he had tortured his lover to death. But miraculously, Kakorr survived - survived to show him through their bond how to attain level three. He had fought then - fought to protect his lover, fought against the agony of the chip trying to control him, against the guilt of what he had done. Fought against Frieza so hard he had burned out the chip in his body. The lizard had died then, not recognizing his defeat at the hands of the 'monkey prince' until it was too late.

It had taken some time to get to this point - to get past the initial guilt and grief. It still bothered him - probably would for the rest of his life - but it wasn't always a soul-crushing ache.

Their bond was one of the things that had saved him - that and the damned Namek calling him an idiot. He hadn't realized it at first, but he and Kakorr had been bonded since their fusion - a strange, shifting ability to read emotions and sometimes thoughts. He had come to rely on that bond, to know that Kakorr was there if he needed him. Through it his lover knew and understood things he couldn't explain.

He smirked. Their bond also led to some incredible sex - sometimes their minds and bodies would merge in some indescribable way, making it feel like he was buried deep inside himself, one person with two bodies, pleasuring himself.

Kakorr had given him back that as well. Vegeta must have known at some deep subconscious level that his mind had been altered when he was still under Frieza's thumb. He had never been able to tell Radditz he loved him, and stopped feeling safe making love to his guard. (He grinned at the idea of calling it that with Radditz. He might have said it their first time, but after that, it was fucking - complete with a leer and a smirk. Kakorr, however, disliked what they did being called something so 'crude and unemotional'. And if he had learned anything, it was useless to fight Kakorr on anything he was emotional about.)

No matter - after their first year or so of 'fucking', he was always uke to Radditz, even though his bodyguard complained. He couldn't explain then, but now he knew it was a reaction to the commands planted by the lizard's doctors to rape and kill whomever he loved. Radditz was the intended target - the lizard hoping that the guard's death would be enough to break the prince so he could be controlled.

But now that he was with Kakorr...as he said, the worst had already happened. Vegeta purred at the memory of the first time he had made love to the young Saiyan. Kakorr had some interesting ideas about what it meant to be seme or uke - had actually laughed at Vegeta when he suggested it was about dominance and control. In Kakorr's mind the seme was protecting and caring for their partner, making sure they knew they were safe and loved.

When he had finally made love to Kakorr, things shifted and fell into place. Before he had always let Kakorr take care of him, comfort him, protect him - rarely considering Kakorr needed to be loved this way as well. He was amazed to find his lover felt safe with him after everything that had happened - safe enough to let - to want - Vegeta to be stronger than him. He suddenly felt a weight of responsibility he hadn't felt as prince. He loved Kakorr, and became more aware of and cared what Kakorr felt, what he wanted - what he needed.

A raindrop hitting his chest interrupted his thoughts. Bulma was never going to let them hear the end of this. He smiled and smelled the forest scent of his lover's hair. Vegeta was actually content for the first time in his life.

His purr faltered a moment before returning louder. Kakorr was awake and had chosen to announce it by sliding his slippery tongue over his nipple. He smirked and tipped his head so he could look at smiling brown eyes.

"'Morning Makoto," Goku purred before pulling Vegeta's head down for a kiss. He loved the fiery taste of his prince, how he thought his tongue would burn at the touch.

Vegeta's reminiscing had woken him, but he had quickly realized his prince was happy this morning. Maybe it was because yesterday Piccolo had encapsulated the Gravity Room for them after removing all evidence of what had happened. The daily reminder of the horror Frieza had caused was gone now - last evening Goku had gazed out their bedroom window, pleased to see the forest, no longer hidden by the huge sphere.

Then again, it could have been due to last night's explosive sex.

He slid his dark tail free of the chestnut one of his prince and brushed it teasingly over Vegeta's bronzed body. His tail coiled around his prince's growing erection and he grinned into the kiss at Vegeta's needy moan.

"Kakorr..." he panted, struggling to get the words out. "...It's raining..."

"And...?" he laughed as a droplet hit his prince squarely between the eyes.

"...We're going to be late..."

"So?" Goku purred, licking on an earlobe and breathing over a perfect ear, "Piccolo won't care..."

"The...brats..." Vegeta bit back a groan as a nipple was sucked and pulled.

"Will be happy to sleep in," Goku laughed, recapturing heated lips, sliding his tongue into fire, running his fingers through silken chestnut flames.

"Breakfast?" Vegeta tried his last weak, meaningless protest, and Goku knew he had won this morning.

"You," Goku purred, smirking, and slipped his tail away from his prince's erection, bristling his fur against the sensitive skin.

"Hentai," Vegeta growled with amusement.

"Yep," he answered, brushing his fingertips over his prince's inner thighs, purring as Vegeta shivered at the sensation. He looked up from his position between his Makoto's spread legs to see glittering black eyes watching him. "Although Chichi..." he gently ran his nails over Vegeta's hips, "...said I am a..." his fingers slipped under and cupped his prince's beautiful ass, "...pervert." He slid his tongue over the damp slit of Vegeta's cock and smirked as his lover arched his hips and moaned.

:: Damn it Kakorr - don't talk about her when you are doing that!::

Goku grinned and wrapped his mouth around his prince's erection, teasing him with his tongue, laughing around the sensitive skin, causing Vegeta to writhe with pleasure. He still couldn't get over the total trust Vegeta gave him, and the knowledge of how rare it was filled him with a possessive pride.

He loved the scent, the taste, the feel of his prince, the way soft hands were buried in his hair, demanding more with their touch. Goku smiled and purred around his cock, sliding more into his mouth - he could never deny his prince any pleasure.

"Ka-" ::Kakorrr.::

Goku could hear the rolling purring sound of his name in his head as Vegeta arched his hips, explosion building. He slipped a finger inside his prince and pressed as he sucked hard, bringing Vegeta to a shaking, shuddering climax.

Vegeta gasped as he tried to catch his breath, watching Kakorr sitting, carefully licking his hands free of his seed.

"You taste good Vegeta."

"Pervert," Vegeta chuckled.

"Uh-huh," Kakorr nodded. "Ready for more?" He could feel Vegeta's amusement at the reminder of his first time with Radditz.

"You planned this, didn't you?" he said, dropping his head back on the pillow, watching through lidded eyes as Kakorr crawled up his body.

"Uh-huh," he said with a grin.

"The brats weren't planning on coming over yet, were they?" he smirked as Kakorr's weight pressed against him.

"Nuh-uh," Kakorr said with a negative flick of his tail.

He felt heat surround him as Kakorr raised his ki, wrapping them both in green energy.

"You've already destroyed the bedroom," he grinned up at the missing roof.

"I know," Kakorr purred, tail dancing teasingly over his body.

"We're getting rained on," he observed.

"We could take a shower instead." Kakorr's mouth was covering his neck and jaw with moisture and heat.

"You're planning on blowing up the bathroom, too, aren't you?" he said, matching Kakorr's ki with his own.

"Uh-huh," Kakorr answered, kissing the hollow of his throat.

"The woman won't be able to sell it," he purred, deliberately spiking his ki so the bed vibrated.

"Serves her right," Kakorr sucked on his earlobe.

Vegeta grinned. Kakorr was still annoyed over the way Bulma had left him but she didn't realize it. "Bulma is going to get pissed," he said, moaning at the sensation as Kakorr let his own ki spike.

"Maybe at you. I'll just growl at her," Kakorr purred as he licked his jaw.

"You are doing it on purpose," Vegeta smirked, shocked out of a groan. Their bond was affecting his lover again, and Kakorr had picked up his taste for destruction and given it an interesting twist.

"Uh-huh," Kakorr growled, hungrily capturing his lips, devouring any protest he might have made.

Kakorr loved to do this - to play with their ki, testing the limits of their control, trying to see which one would falter and flare in passion, sending waves of energy washing over them both. He shouldn't complain - he had started it, forcing Kakorr to ascend while they were having sex in the bathroom, the resulting eruption of ki blowing out the wall of their first house.

Goku laughed - he picked up Vegeta's images of the aftermath - an annoyed Piccolo and a laughing Chichi - and an extremely embarrassed, aroused prince. He broke their kiss to look around at what was left of the singed bedroom of their second house - he had done that too. Vegeta had much better control. Except for the one time, Goku had caused all of the damage - but Bulma didn't need to know that. They had a new, stronger, third house waiting and he was determined to give this one a fitting send off.

He had really tried last night - was it his fault Vegeta got so much larger and harder at level three? He grinned. Yeah, it was his fault. Vegeta had given him exactly what he wanted. He had deliberately held his own ki as low as he could stand, gasping and incoherent as his prince slowly ascended while buried inside of him. It was amazing - he was stretched and filled and charged with Vegeta's ki. He finally couldn't take it anymore - he lost all control and ascended instantly to level three himself, screaming as he came, waves of energy blasting away the roof and a wall.

"The Namek or your woman are going to show up again," Vegeta protested.

"Nuh-uh. They didn't show up last night. I told them to stay away," he answered, tracing each line of muscle on the prince's body with a ki-warmed finger.

"Maybe Kakorr," Vegeta said between shivers, "I should tell Bulma that all of this destruction was planned by her 'innocent' friend Goku."

Goku stopped what he was doing and stared in shock, mostly at the foreign sound of his name on his prince's lips, but also at the idea of Vegeta telling on him.

"You wouldn't..." he gasped.

Vegeta growled and took advantage of his surprise, rolling Kakorr over onto his back and straddling him. He dangled his tail by Kakorr's mouth and as expected it was captured and sucked hungrily. His lover had quite an oral fetish.

"What will you give me, Kakorr?" he purred, staring down at glittering brown eyes.

"What would my prince like?" Kakorr answered, giving his tail one last lick before releasing it. Kakorr wrapped his tail around his arm, sliding it over his heated skin.

"I was thinking..." he teased Kakorr's erection with his tail, making him moan, "maybe this..." his tail moved lower and brushed against his entrance, pressing through the tight ring. "Or better yet, this..."

Kakorr arched his hips at the new sensation, mewling with surprise at the feel of fur rippling inside of him.

"Oh GodS yes," he moaned, "Anything..."

Vegeta grinned. Those were probably the last coherent words Kakorr would be able to say for awhile.

TBC