I updated my roleplay info site after 1000 years!
Here it is!

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I'm moving downtown somewhere arpnd the 9th! I'm so happy i'm getting away from here! I'll be closer to alot of events.  Everything happens downtown ,expect the state fair.

Day one and two.

I'm happy I got away from the computer for a while. I planned to focus more on my art from the start of all this. The computer is a big distraction, cuz it's how i'm socail. I'm just lonely as an artist ,but that's better for me. It lets me think on my own ,and with nothing else to do i can't put it off for later.

Day four.

My sister got a new ride! It's a white Jeep Wrangler, and we're all too happy for her!  she's scared of the way it rides ,so the makes for lolz! I rode in it with her ,my uncle and my mom, and we had funz! It's so easy to flip of ,and that makes it awesome! I want one!

Day nine.

I arrvie at my grandma's. Me and mom got into ANOTHER fight ,but she can go to hell now (and most likely will ,anyway).  My grandma is loud, and i do'nt like loud ,but she's nice and stuff. She minds her own business, usually friendly, so it evens itself out. She's good to talk to about personal stuff cuz she won't tell anyone.

3/25

*I'm drawing*

Grandpa:
"Don't you ever get tired of drawing?"

*stops to look up at him*
Me:
"No. Why do you ask?"

"It's does something to your brain."
*He leaves*

Me:
o.O
I shoulhd'have asked "like what?" but i was cought too off graud ,at first.  He got me good.

Later on he got onto me about not washing my hands and batheing everyday. They're SO CLEAN! DX Drives me nuts. I only skipped one night of a bath! i washed my hands thou.

3/27

We head to my city for my grandma's check up, and she might have breast cancer. My other grandma had it ,too. It makes me sad ,but i'm sure they'll do everything they can ,and she'll take her meds.

We want to the free clinic. It's fine with me ,but i don't like gheeto people that much...but they smell like friuty gum ,and i like friuty gum!

:dance: SWEENY TODD DVD ON APRIL 1ST! :dance:

3/28

My grandpa ate all the peach cobbler! I'm so pissed! :D

3/29

My grandpa feels the need to express himself about my body stauer and weitgh. I'm not a fat pig like the 7 year old they're currently housing, but she was thin when she first got there. There's not the do ing th country for a 7 year old ,but eat and watch tv. Yeah, that will make you fat. I just ate crackers for snacks so i stay thin. *proud nod*

3/30

I wished it would rain yesterday and it rained all day today! I decide to start acting weird around grandpa becuz he's been annoing me, and i think it worked.  I like to even things out.

3/31

It's still raining! Thank you JEZUS!

4/3

I talked to my dad for the first time in 2 or 3 years. I still hate him ,but i won't givwe him the satifaction of knowing i resent him. I just put on my "happy chessy" voice as i talked and hoped his ears would bleed from my high pitch tone and volume. He had the nerve to ask if i need his help. YEAH RIGHT! I'll be homeless out on the street dieing of AIDS before i ask his help, and i may not even ask then.

My grandma lectured me about asking people for help no matter who they are. I just toned it out. I don't want or need him.

4/4

I go home today! I want to get back to the city, but i will miss the cleaner air and the stars. I'm glad to be rid of the 7 year old! 
 

We have to move now. My mom is sick of living here ,so we're gonna be out by the 17th ,and we might be in a hotel for a while. No computer, but i'll have my art books and color pencils. I have stuff into that should hold me for a while. Hopefully we won't be in a hotel for too long, but i like hotels anyway.

I use to really want to move ,but i changed my mind alil ,but now we have to move. Even if i don't like something i get use to it ,but i deal with it. This shit is always broken ,but now the big news. The apt gate hit my mom's car! It's not bad ,but my sis is freaking out cuz she was in the car.

I hope we move to where i can get a job ,or get some cleaning business. I'm gonna put fliers on people's car as soon as we get to the new place. We're seriously gonna need the money...for stuff. For some reason i'm really peaceful about this.

On a different note, i'm finding out were cheap name-brand clothes are. :XD: I want some! My sister knows where cheap stuff is, so i'mma go get some more clothes. I really hope to start working soon...on something. I might have to start doing softcore porn, or something cuz i'm starting to get at the end of my rope. I'll suck a dick ,or something before i do fast food.

Something has to happen...Something is going to happen. All these things are changing ,but even tho it seems bad I know this is gonna turn out better. :yes:

I love you all ,ok?
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Hey all! I need your help! I don't care if you're an artist or not. I'm not asking for anything hard. What i need is a pose sketch, or pose sketches depending on how many you're willing to do. They don't have to be anatomically correct. They can be in the shape of humans ,animals or monsters, they can be oddly shaped : e.i. it has animal hine leg ,and one are is longer then they other.

I don't care what you do it on. Photoshop, paint, pencil and paper I just need it to be seeable. What I'm gonna do with them is draw some ideas i have for new characters on them ,and some of them aren't human ,so let your imagination sore on these. You will be crediting when i upload them to various art sites like SA.N PD/RC and others. This shouldn't take more then less then 5 mins or maybe even 5 seconds of your time so "I'm too busy" is no excuse. I need them ASAP. Note i will have to print these out so please don't make them too big or too small. Thanks to those that help. To those that don't: You're a bunch of lousy FUCKS! And i mean VERY lousy fucks. If you call yourself my friend (you're watching me and all) then you should help. I'm not asking for money or anything. Just MUCH less then 5 mins of your time.

What are pose lines?

Pose lines are "skeletons" of your drawing. You draw them first then when you've added the other elements to the work you erase them. Only people that use pose lines will probully understand that.

My mommy's a grad student with a bachelors on social work now! I'm so proud! Today was a great day! Now i'll go into more detail! :dance:

FUCKIN' AWESOME:

My mom has what she's been aiming for seen she was about 17 or so. Yay!

My oldest sister was there.

No mess got started. / No one had a fight.

We all got to yell really loud ,and it was funny my mom didn't see us at all ,until the end.

I got bad ass pics of here. I hate being in pictures ,but i sure as hell know how to take some!

I got my phone turned back on!

I got a SoBe! :3

OMG!WTF?!GTFO!!! DX :

Racist Asshole COSTLY resterant! - Alot together i know it was $300 spend in RABB's. The place in Ruston. People that came in AFTER us got their food BEFORE us. What really upsets ME tho is that i on't like eating food that costs too much. I'd rather cook my own food (i wuv cooking), then pay so stupid fucks that i have to wait on FOREVER to get my food.

My older sister didn't come. I'm not mad...I'm just REALLY disappointed with her, as is my mom and maybe everyone else.

LOLZ (in order) :

The guy behind (that suppose to be in fornt of) my mom was saying all kinds of things about people ...jusr being a general asshole. That's [art opf the reason why mom could see us. When she hears something it takes alot of her focus

My mom forget her car!! - We left alil while after we couldn't find her in the grad crowd, and she yelled at my sis and her friend and they had to go back. I went with them and toke pictures ,too. After a few my mom got in the truck with us and my sis said "Mom, you gonna come back to get your car?" and we all look at her and she was like "OH NOES! I forgot my car! XD" Best LOLZplaza of the day. In fact ,that was the funniest non-internet/ TV related thing i've seen in a long time.

She made a drunk promise to me that'd she'd take me out on my 20th bday. My last few bday days have been VERY boring and stuff... she was drunk so i'm not holding her to it...but it's funny cuz she was drunk! XD

Overall my day went very well.The "out to eat" part wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. I'll take racist-giving-us-our-food-last over fighting. :yes: Next time something like this happens when going our asses to Ryna's...like we should've in the first place, but it was mom's idea and today was TRULY her day.

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Still open for Battle Royal rp!

I'm so proud of my mom! :bounce: She's finally getting she college degree after 20-something years! She driving herself crazy for no reason tho. She want to throw everything together at the last minute ,so that what she gets.

The bad side of it:

What i don't like is that she wants me to go out to eat with her and the others. I'm not going out to eat with them if my oldest sister ,and her "husband" are going ,tho. All they do is start sh*t ,and i don't hang around people like that ,family or not. I don't give a shit how much she yells ,i'm not going out to eat with them becuz they're the main one that wanna start sh*t.
 

drama ,drama, drama.... :slant:

Well, today my mom yelled at me and i told her i still want to kill myself. I've been suicidal for years now... She was asking me wanted to do with my life and i replied something along the lines of "I'm gonna have a kid so i can live on well-fair. I'll get a job at McDonald's, then when i'm suck of being a big disappointment and inconvenience to everyone i'll put my kid up for adoption and i'll kill myself...creativily of course". Now ,for a normal mood that would be a very sarcastic comment, but i was serious and she knows it.

It's true tho...I don't have any skills of any will to do anything. All i can do is waste some time then die. It's all i'm worth.  I just can't understand math so i'll never even get my GED. I don't have any dreams or anything to make me want to do anything.

I'm not asking for pity or anything like that. The facts are facts and there's nothing to be done about it. I'm just sorry i didn't die when i had my as-- i can't spell it ,but i stopped breathing all the sudden and i slowly blacked out... I remember it so well it's odd. I was going in and out in the ambulance and hospital.

Anyway (sorry. everything i think of how i remember that so well when i can't remember anything else i can't stop think about it until i have the whole thought out of what happened ...up to the point where i black out again), i know killing one's self is a simple task ,but it's the fear of not knowing what death is like or what really is on the other side of life. Religions think they have the answers ,but they don't.  No one knows what's over there.

The people that say "you just want the easy with out" are worse. What easy way out? You're gonna die anyway, i just wanna get it over with.  I don't think of death as an "easy way out". I think of death as a hard way out. It takes alot of a person to kill themselves. I don't see them as cowards or heroes...They just couldn't take it anymore. Either suffer in life ,or just go on and die and get out of everyone else's way.

I said i don't want pity and i doubt anyone cares since no one on this site really knows me. I guess that's why i post. I can tell anyone anything and they don't know me well enough to care ,nor can they do anything about it.